Saturday's Cold

Here it is, Saturday, and I've tucked myself in bed for the day.  Someone came to work carrying in some kind of cold germs and they jumped on me, attacked me and I'm down for the count ... well, for the day anyways.  I hate having colds:  the nasal drip is irritating, but worse is the draining down the throat that makes it feel scratchy.  The only thing that makes it feel better is eating, especially warm soup.  I keep wondering if adding something with some really hot sauce will burn it off???  But that's just wishful thinking, I suppose.

There are rumors running rampant around my BigBox Store about a possible change to my position.  I can't imagine what they're thinking at the highest levels -- I realize that long term employees make more $$ in the hourly rate, and that payroll is one controllable expense.  But those same long term employees are the glue holding things together, who still know how things should be done.  But in the overall, I've seen some major changes in my 18 years, some good, some not so good - and those went back to the old ways because that's what worked best.  *smh*

What this all means is that at some point, my job will be eliminated, and now what will I do??  I'm nearly 60 years old, I've done retail for the past 18, and what kind of position could I get now????   Ugh. 
I just have to hang in another 7 years before I can retire at full benefit. That's my goal.

And yet, I think about retirement and wonder what I would DO every day??  The only time I wasn't employed was the 4 years I spent raising six kids ... and THAT kept me very busy.  So what does someone do when you're retired?  My parents, they babysat grandkids.  But I only have one, and she's 16 now.  *sigh* 

The other thing that revolves 'round and 'round in my head is getting my affairs together, getting my living trust in order, then what?  Planning my funeral?  These are depressing thoughts at the moment, because I don't actually *feel* like I'm 60.  Unless you count the morning creaks and moans as I tumble myself out of bed. 

So I have to make the best of these next seven years and ... preparing myself.
Who said these years would be Golden??

Hello, 2019!

It's my goal this year to get outdoors and take more photos.  I've been lacking in the "getting out" part of my life this past year, and that needs to change.

It's not easy, because I always feel guilty leaving Sadie at home.  But taking her with me in the car causes me a lot of anxiety because she doesn't travel well.  The minute we're in the car, she's bouncing off the walls like a 2 year old who's just had a bottle of sugar water!  On the days when I take off for some photo ops, I make sure to take her on two extra long walks so she doesn't feel so left out.  Ugh.  That's a lot of effort because I have dog! 

The other reason for not getting out as much is due to health issues.  When the need for a bathroom arises, there isn't much time to dash -- and you can't always take a dog into a restroom with you, so where does that leave me?  Dashing to the car to lock her away, then dashing back toward a bathroom!!  The fear of not making it on time has kept me home the past year, and with the help of meds, I'm overcoming most of it, sans dog.  

Today was a quick jaunt over to Riparian Preserve.  Because the weather was 20 degrees warmer than it had been all week, the park was full of people and dogs.  I'm happy they were all outdoors, but it chases away the birds and animals ..... so photos were few.  I'm never sure if people care when their photo gets accidentally taken.  There were some little girls playing follow the leader, and that could have been a wonderful photo, but these days you can never be too careful when photographing kids.  So I didn't.  I just watched as they all followed the bravest girl, who led them up, over, down all the cement climbing opportunities she could!  Oh to be so carefree again!!

Hello, 2019, I hope it's a terrific year!