Why the Guilt?

When I have a day off work, I struggle with opposing issues:  to rest up or to get things accomplished.   My days off are split up, Weds and Saturdays.  Getting rest is important.  But because I work a lot, there is always a lengthy To Do list as well.

I wake up early, yet force myself to stay in bed and rest.  But resting here, I feel guilty for not jumping up and working on the list.  Why the guilt?  Every body needs rest; we function better when we're rested.

The next jump my brain makes is to depression ..... am I doing nothing because I'm depressed???  With all the things I've been through, am going through, its not impossible to side with depression.  

One thing I do to combat those thoughts is a daily walk in a park.  I challenged myself to to 30 walks in 30 days.  It helps!!  Yesterday's walk was at Veterans Oasis Park. 

Time to jump up and start on my To Do list!  If I work fast, I can rest later ... before today's walk!

Self Realizations

 I have been forcing myself to take a walk in a park every day, usually after work. I decided that I needed to do this, so challenged myself to 30walks in 30days.  So far so good!  5 days in and I'm still at it!

But what I just realized is that when I'm out in nature, I am drawn to trees and water.  Not that I have an explanation for it, but was reviewing photos I have taken, and yep, water and trees.

While I enjoy all parts of nature, those are a definite draw!  I have come to really enjoy these odd little self realizations that spring up from time to time!!