Finding Focus

I have always liked reading and writing.  When I was in the second grade I wrote an "Ode to Morning" that described how I heard my father's car driving off to work each morning as "the roar of the Rambler..".  We all chuckle each time we read it.  That was the beginning, but as I reflect back over the years, I regret that I didn't do more with my writing.  But that's water under the bridge .... 

I used to think that Sadie was holding me back from some of the things I used to do more of ... working on my computer with photos, writing, and family tree research.  It's been a few weeks and I'm still trying to find my equilibrium.  My days were structured with Sadie, with no room for anything else.  Now I come home from work and there's .... nothing.  From the time I moved out from my parents' house, it was into an apartment with my husband.  Then kids came, and a different husband, step kids, and animals.  I didn't want a dog, but once I got Sadie, she was my sidekick!  So now, this is the first time I've been alone.  No kids, no pets, just an empty house.  I hope this is an interim, and that I'll get back to doing my own things again. 

When I had a day off last Saturday, I just couldn't seem to get motivated to do anything.  I have put a temporary hold on prepping things for a move should it be needed, and working holidays in retail puts me in a cranky mood most days.  I know I shouldn't feel guilty about doing nothing but sometimes I do. 

I guess it's time for more lists:  things I should do, things I want to do and things I need to do.  Somewhere in these lists of things is going to be more writing.   Maybe that will help me be more focused on my days off. 

It worked in the past!!