Dear Brian,
It's difficult to think that another round of holidays are upon us. And to think that I'm going through it without you. It hurts, but we keep moving forward as best we can.
Another surge of this COVID virus is making the rounds and they're advising that we don't get together with others from outside our own home to keep ourselves safe. It's making things difficult for some. I know Grandma misses being able to get together with friends and family, but she's very afraid of being exposed. I spend about an hour a day on the phone with her, and end up doing a lot of reassuring. She's surviving though!
Jake and Haley had baby Josie Lee, and Anthony and Krissy are expecting in May - a girl named Aubree! It's a growing family, and life moves on.
I painted my bedroom this year, two weeks ago, and happy I got it done early. I caught a cold, and stayed home from work (SHOCK!!) but I was worried about COVID too. I sat on the couch bingeing on 7th Heaven and taking my temp every hour. But it seems it's just a cold, and has already gotten better. Thank goodness.
I forced myself out to the park behind the library, got a few good shots, but I'm a little out of practice. It hasn't been easy trying to be .... normal in an abnormal world. But then, I'm not so normal even on a good day!
It hasn't been easy going through these days without you. If you were still here, I'd have no qualms about moving to Calif to take care of mom, and leaving you in the house. But they were my long term plans, and that hasn't worked out. I miss you every day, and think of you at least once every day. When you were 16, you told me you'd live with me forever -- and we both laughed! But now ... how I wish! Things will never be the same, never feel normal for me. I'm trying to follow your wishes and be happy, but it's hard to be happy when one loses a child. I'll always love you
Missing you every day,
Love, Mom
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