Because I Matter

Second day on my self imposed new attitude when it comes to work.  My phone rang at 5am and I was told that one of my workers called off.  We are a team of 4 people, so 32 hours a day of work that keeps all of us very busy.  Monday is the one day when there are only 2 covering the four shifts.  Having one call off means I was left to do it all on my own.  

I covered the first five hours covering the shift of the one who called off.  Then I had to do my own tasks which take most of Monday.  I usually just work really hard, stressed out the entire time, to get it all done in just 4 hours.  Today, I just did what I could, and didn't stress about any of it!!   Because I matter.

I was just about getting the majority of it completed when a manager wanted some help with some training issues.  Usually I just say that I'm too busy ... yaa daa yaa daa ... but today, I stopped my own tasks and helped.  And when it was time to clock out, even though my own tasks were *not* done, I left.   Because I matter.

It leaves me feeling as if I didn't accomplish anything.  I did accomplish some things, but I didn't accomplish everything.  There's a difference when you're an OCD perfectionist.  But I'm going to learn to live with the feeling, hoping that I can catch things up tomorrow.  But one of the major decisions that I made today was I'm going to work my schedule and if that means there's OT at the end of the week, then so be it.  The company should be paying me when they can't hire workers who are willing to come to work when they're scheduled.  If I have to cover a shift, then they pay the OT or they find a worker willing to work what's been scheduled. 

Making these decisions are a real problem for me.  I've always been a team player.  But when the group isn't much of a team any longer, then what does it matter???  Ah well, we shall see how tomorrow goes, or doesn't!    Because I matter, too!