Friday, July 29, 2022

Happy Natal Day

 Today I turn 63 years old.  And in my old age, I find myself being more ... thoughtful, as in thinking about things in the past, reminiscing along with thoughts about all the changes that have happened in my lifetime.  

We've gone from a corded phone that hung on the wall, to cordless phones so that we could wander within the house, to cell phones that let you make calls from outside a house, to smart phones that let you do everything from anywhere! 

We've gone from a black and white TV that weighed 50+ lbs with tubes to color TVs to smart TVs that do everything our smart phones can do -- and sometimes more! 

A computer was a giant thing that was only found at IBM, to a personal type computer that sat on a desktop.  I can remember doing "upgrades" by installing additional memory and such so that it would work better, faster, easier, or something else.  Then it was from desktops to lap tops to tablets and ultimately back to the smart phone because we can do so much on them.  I laugh because the first laptop I bought for myself was around $2k.  And now, gee whiz the technology that we've seen in the last 50 years has been incredible!!  

I can remember being in the 4th grade and we were discussing the possibility of cities being under some kind of domes because of pollution.  There was also talk about flying cars - just like we watched in the Jetsons cartoon!  Here we are 50+ years later and none of that has happened.  Yet.

Vehicles have certainly changed.  Cars got bigger in the late 60s and 70s, and then began growing smaller after that.  Back then gas was 35cents a gallon.  I can remember Dad filling up at the Shell Station on the corner of Bowers and El Camino in Santa Clara.  He'd fill the tank and then get a free steak knife, or a free smokey grey highball glass with the Raiders or 49ers logo on them.  And I'm quite certain Mom still has a complete set for each team sitting on the shelf under the bar!!  

Then there was the gas crisis/shortage in the early 80s, and we'd wait in lines at gas stations to fill our tanks -- even and odd days, depending on the digits of your license plate, was the day you could get in line for a fill up!   And today, the current gas price as I cruised past the station is $4.69/gallon. 

Sometimes I wonder what the kids who are just entering adulthood will think about in 50 more years! What changes will they see??  

And who can forget the entire pandemic that didn't just affect us here in the US, but all over the world??  It's still affecting people, and things, and the way we live our lives.  The pandemic brought panic purchases and hoarding -- we were waiting in lines to be able to purchase just one pack of toilet paper and one pack of paper towels!  In all my years, I think the pandemic was the most stressful thing we've endured thus far.  When the reality of people getting sick and dying struck here in the US, and businesses were forced to find a way to keep going while getting workers to work remotely from home, the first few weeks were really unnerving.  People didn't go to out, the roads were incredibly empty.  I live in a suburban neighborhood, lots of homes for miles.  And yet as I'm staring out my front window, here comes a coyote walking down the center of the street.  Man! How I wished my camera had been in my hand!  

And yet, even with all the changes that have happened, people still fall in love, get married, have families, raise kids .... in short, they live life.   Life keeps going, we keep changing with all the things that have changed us.  Some good, some not so good.  But that's how life goes.  Good things happens.  Bad things happen.  But it's how we handle both the good and the bad that makes us into the wonderful, beautiful people we've all become!! 


Life is Good!

Happy Birthday to me!


Saturday, July 2, 2022

Three. Long. Years.

 Dear Brian.

It's been three years today since you left my life, left this Earth.  Grief is something you never get over, it's just something you learn to live with.  Some days are better than others, but not a single day goes by that I don't think of you, to remember some adventure we had, the laughs we shared.  Sure, we had our tough times, but that happens between all parents and their kids. 

Every day can be a challenge for me.  Sure, I still do the "regular" stuff:  work, chores, errands.  But it's the other things that are harder for me now.  Doing things alone isn't as fun any more.  I miss having you along on my strange adventures and odd ideas.  I remember the many different times we hiked up on Superstition Mountain.  I remember the many times we drove to Cali to see the grandparents.  

Jake has finally decided to move to AZ and he bought a house in Chandler!  It'll be another 10 days before he can finally get into his house.  He's excited to get started on life here.  I hope he ends up liking it!   You know as well as I do that starting over somewhere isn't always the easiest thing, but he's much better at the people skills than you and I are.  

I've painted a few rocks in your memory, I still post photos and such on your memorial page and on your facebook page.  Whether one person or ten sees it, it doesn't matter to me.   Posting things is the way to help me remember you, to keep your memory alive.  

I love you, I miss you every day.  I can wish it over and over that things had been different, but that doesn't change any thing.  You'll never be forgotten.

Love,

Mom