How many times do we think back over something we said, or some event that went wrong, and think "what if ..... " ? There are so many times, if you're like me, where we think and re-think something that could have gone better if only we had done or said something different. It's really hard to let go of some of those things where we might have had better control if only ... .
There have been times in my working life where I could have controlled my tongue or my emotions better. For me, it's easy to get into the "groove" being too open or outspoken with someone I consider a friend, but is technically a boss. And of course, there's the down side of showing every feeling and emotion on my face! I am definitely not a good poker player! I'm better than I was 20 years ago, thankfully.
There are times when I find myself getting into a really deep groove, more like a rut, thinking about the what if's in my past. I know I have/hold a lot of animosity regarding my own family. There are things that have happened and it has created hostilities in some areas. For example, why are people so funny about money?? There was a situation where the inheritance from my grandfather to his children was .... redirected .... to a grandson in totality. My mother and her sister didn't receive any part of the inheritance. And since then, the old family farmstead home has been razed, so no more family history there any longer. Another one of those situations where you say "what if ??"
Which brings me to current situations. My parents had a life plan, and it isn't working out how they planned it. And I'm not sure how to go about getting some changes. I don't want to be saying "what if" in another ten years! So I'll be spending a week with my mom in the future, and hope we can spend some time having some real conversations so there won't be those what if's.
So if you're on your road of life, and you have choices to make, think them through, and /or go with your gut instinct if that's something you trust, so that later in life, you won't have any of the "what if's" that get stuck in your head!
