I ... am an addict

That's right.  I am an addict.  A sugar addict.

For the past couple of months in spite of my good intentions, I have let things get out of control.  My eating habits aren't healthy - I feel like I can't resist anything!  My trips to the gym are few and far between -  I use the excuse that I'm busy, or there's too much work, or my son needs something in the afternoon.

But to be honest, they're all just excuses
for bad behaviour.

Yes.  In my mind, I know all of this, and still I continue to grab whatever's in front of me....  a handful of chips, or maybe some trail mix.  Sometimes before dinner.  Sometimes after dinner.  Sometimes both even!  And frankly, the scale is showing my bad habits to me.  I feel fat, and it makes me sad.  And then I'm sad, so I eat.... what a vicious cycle.

The most depressing part is that all of last year's hard work is gone, and I have to start over again.  But I'm finding it hard to have some true motivation.  Last year, I hired a trainer to help me get past the humps.  This year, no can do, my finances are strapped.

I know one thing, for sure.  I am an addict.  A sugar addict.   A small sampling of sugar and my cravings are through the roof.  I once thought I had enough self control to allow myself to have a small sampling of something sweet to curb the craving and move on.  But now I know that I don't.   After having my doctor tell me that I'd have to repeat a colonoscopy every year, and should follow a high fiber diet doesn't even phase me.  My research has shown me over and over again how carbs turn to sugar and cancers feed on sugar.  Does that stop me from putting things in my mouth that my body can't handle?? Nope!   Shame on me.  :/

So how does one overcome all the circumstances, the excuses and the plain ol' laziness and get back to business at hand?

The easy, trite answer is "one day at a time".  That I know what I've been doing, know that I need to stop and make some real changes, know that I am only hurting myself.  Some days, I don't seem to care about that.

But it's time to make a real change.
Beginning now.
I'll keep you posted :)