Living a song

I've been loving you too long to stop now

My heart I can't control; you rule my very soul.
My only prayer will be, some day you'll care for me,
But it's only make believe.

I been hangin' round this place, 

I been lookin' through your space
I been waitin' for you, lookin' for you,

It's easier to lie to me than to yourself.

I know you've got somebody else

Should I hold on to what we've got?

Is it just a waste of time?

All my candles have burned out

Like the tide, my love has come and gone

and it's time for me to go.

But it's always gonna be you
Always gonna be you I'm lookin' for

One of the things I've realized is that my online chat time needs to be less; I used to come online and chat with friends from all over.  Slowly over time, my contacts with folks becames less, and my time with one increased.  But when I look back, I can see now that my time is relatively 'controlled' by another influence.  And I promised myself that I would never settle, never come second in someone's life.  I did it again; my promise to myself was broken, and I believed in someone who wasn't honest with me.