How Do You Know

All of my stress lately has been from Mom.  And I'm trying to make sense of a convo I tried to have with her.  I attived at her house yesterday afternoon and she tells me she can't live alone any more.  I tried to talk to her, is she afraid? Is there something else?  And she tells me living alone has always been the problem.  I asked why she wanted to buy a house when she moved here??  We could have found a nice assisted living place ......

*sigh*

So how do you know???  Whatever goes on in her mind she never shares honestly.  Why??  

So that has me wondering yet again.  If she's in assisted living, she will still be in her own "apartment."  Is she going to try to rent a 2bedroom so someone (me??) can stay with her????   

I have spent 60+ years watching and listening.  She has the skills to harp about something until she gets her way.  Which is why there's the many mentions about living alone.  Maybe she assumes I will eventually give in??

I spent the night, I took her for her MRI. When we were done, she wanted to get a hamburger.  Sorry, nothing open at 9am!  But I stayed at her house for a while.  She turned on the TV, loud as usual, then proceeded to snooze in her chair.  

She wants/expects someone to move in and keep her company so she can have restful naps?  I took off to the bedroom, slipped on my headphones and listened to Alpha Waves music on Spotify to relax.  

And thought to myself I am 66 years old, I am not moving into a 12x12 bedroom to keep her company, to take care of her. I am a grown up, with a 3 bedroom house and all my own stuff.  There wouldn't be room for the two of us to share space.

Harp away, Mom, you will not change my mind.  Time to look for assisted living I suppose.  How do you know when?