Another rough day for me. So I'm trying to find a way to overcome it. What works for you? I tried napping. I tried cleaning. I tried the treadmill. Just can't shake it.
Usually I can work through it by cleaning. Nothing like taking some anger out on your floors with the vacuum!! But its not working today.
So what brought this on? I was in bed nearly asleep when mom calls. She's crying and blubbering about how she can't live alone any more. *sigh* another panic attack. I had already taken a sleeping pill so I can't drive over. I just try and talk her through it. She's hyperventilating so I remind her to control her breathing. She takes two deep breaths and right back to shallow panicked breathing.
She tells me she "can't help it". Probably because she keeps spiraling. To me it seems more like panic disorder: "an anxiety disorder characterized by unexpected and repeated panic attacks, along with persistent worry about having another attack." In her case, she not only worries about the next panic attack, but everything else as well.
Accordingly, its helped with meditation, relaxation and mental therapy. None of those are in her wheel house, and she doesn't care to learn about or try them.
When she couples her attacks with "its not worth living like this" what is there left to do??? So my night was spent dozing off and on, wondering if the phone will ring again.
And lucky me, I will be spending the night with her as she has a doctor appt at 630am. None of this is easy.
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