Undo it

Now I only have myself to blame 
For falling for your stupid games.....

You stole my happy,  you made me cry 
Took the lonely,  and took me for a ride  
And I wanna uh.uh.uh.uh. undo it 
You had my heart,  now I want it back......

... sings Carrie Underwood

I had a very lonely day.  And I heard this song on the radio.   And it got me thinking about regrets ...  do I have regrets?  I don't think so ....  well, maybe a little bit.   But the first line, blaming myself ......   I blame myself a lot.   Because I allowed myself to fall in love  with someone I didn't know.  

So I guess the question is:  Do I love 'him'??  Or the man who lives in my imagination?  I call my imaginary friend "Michael" - He's smart, funny, a thinker.  He knows quite a bit about a lot of different things.  He ponders the world and life and our reasons for being here.  He listens, asks questions, and cares.  More than that, my Michael loves me, wants the best for me, and wants to be with me.

But sadly, Michael only lives in my imagination....
I wonder if there are any "real" Michaels out there??