Small Complaints

It's so easy to find a topic to rant about.  People in general love to complain, and sure, I have my moments as well!

Work: 2% annual raise, across the board everyone gets the same raise.  So where's the incentive to do a better job?  Cuz it doesn't add to the pay raises.

Family: Not everyone's family meets an ideal criteria, or what's considered ideal via media's portrayal?  I was raised on "Leave it to Beaver" type family.  I was never the favorite kid; more like I was the one with responsibilities.  And I've always taken them seriously.  I always felt my sister was more favored, but it's become even more apparent at this late date.  I call my mom every day after work, we talk for about 15 minutes.  But we weren't on the phone more than 2 minutes when one of the grandson's needed her help putting on a bandaid for a rug burn.  It couldn't wait 10 minutes til we were done.  In my mind I said "fuck this" and sweetly told my mother I'll call her tomorrow and hung up.  It's not the first time I've been back-burnered because her grandsons come first.  Or because my sister arrives.  etc. etc.

When an incident happens and your feelings are bruised, you start thinking of the other times this has happened.  And I see it even more now as I look back.  And yet, even when I point it out, Mom doesn't see it the way I see it.  Because of her actions of putting them first, they are spoiled and have come to expect her to cater to their whims and needs every single time.  Every now and then the light shines and she complains about how privileged and/or entitled they act; how they don't help out to pay her back for all she does for them.    It makes me sad.  And it's not something for me to fix.

Weather:  I live in the Valley of the Sun .... we expect really nice days in Feb, but it's been cold - frost on the rooftops again this morning.  Where are you spring??

Time:  Why is it that now my kids are grown, it's just me, why don't I have enough time to do the things I enjoy doing?  I feel like all I ever do is work, walk the dog and sleep!  ugh

I've learned I have to let go of the things that I cannot change, be thankful for what I have, and to embrace the things I want to accomplish.

This weekend, I am painting my house!
Spare bedroom done last May, my bedroom done over Christmas holiday, that just leaves the living/kitchen/dining and hallways.
Big chore for one person, but I got this!

Happy Weekend!