Hello, Friiiiday!

It might be Thursday, but it's my Friday!  I have another odd schedule because of upcoming vacations within my work group.  But that's ok, as long as I have two days off in a row, it's a win!

More nightmares on Tuesday night -- one involved a shooter, me hiding behind wooden dining chairs, the wood splintering and flying all around with every shot.  Whatever the agenda or the situation surrounding all of this, I don't remember.  

The second nightmare of the night I was spending time (vacation?) in my Grandfather's house on the farm.  There's a steep flight of stairs going up to the second story bathroom, I remember climbing the stairs carrying Sadie, got halfway up and a panic attack started, knowing I couldn't get both me and Sadie to the top, I needed to turn around.  Unfortunately, there was a line of several other people behind me trying to make their way to the top as well.    In the meantime, every so often the sky would turn black and there would be a huge explosion.  My cousin Ronnie was blowing up cars and farm equipment to collect on the insurance checks.  I confronted my Aunt and Uncle -- but they blowing it all off like it was no big deal.  I remember thinking my Aunt was looking unlike herself, she'd let herself go, was wearing a thin white tshirt and had a belly on her now.  

There's background to this nightmare:  my grandfather's trust was to let each of his children have a share of the land.  Somehow things got convoluted and my cousin now own's all the land, bought it at a fire-sale rate, and grandfather signed off on it, even though he was over 100 years old.  I'm sure he had control issues and kept his signature on the trust.  Who knew he'd live to be 104?   And my Aunt, she was a teacher, I remember her always impeccably dressed, even to work in the garden!  It made me wonder at why I was dreaming of them .... when I told my mom about the dream, she reminded me that day it was my uncle's birthday!   Ok, now that's a little woo woo!  *lol*

Sometimes I shake my own head, wondering about the meaning behind it all.  You can bet I took a few extra minutes at the park to lay in the grass, grounding myself.  I also carried some polished stones in my pocket for two days .... because you never know!