There is too much going on for me right now, and I'm stressing and anxious over all of it.
I'm scheduled for Jury Duty today, and I just don't think I can go .... gastro issues become more extreme when I'm stressed and anxious. Taking meds to combat that means that instead it becomes constipation and that's almost just as bad.
On top of that, my doc told me I had an abnormal EKG, and high blood pressure. Which of course is causing lots more anxiety and stress. Which means I'm worried, and frankly a bit scared. With the anxiety added to some of the depression in the last year, it's not really any wonder, but still ...... :/
Just how much is a person supposed to endure ???
I know that each of us has circumstances out of our control. How we handle them is what makes or breaks us. I've always been a believer in the fact that God doesn't give us what we can handle, but helps us handle what we are given.
I'm wondering if this is a sign about some changes that need to be made in my life, including where I'm going to live. I love my little house, but I also feel the need to be with my mother as she gets older as well. My sister died and now mom doesn't have someone close by to depend on. And thinking about everything makes me feel just a little bit more ill.
I will be watching for more signs as I move through the next few months to see if there's something I should be doing as I handle all the stresses coming my way. I'm praying that my heart is just showing signs of anxiety and nothing else really serious. If it's anxiety, I'll have to learn to realign my life and incorporate more walking and more meditation and relaxation.
I would appreciate a little prayer sent my way if that's your thing. If it's not, then just some positive vibes would sure be appreciated. Thank You!
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