All Knotted Up

Ever felt like your hands were tied?
Like there was nothing you could do in a situation?
What do you do when that happens?

I started this blog on 8/21, and never posted it. But the same still holds true this week: I feel all knotted up. Might be time to look at finding a place to get a massage. Here's where more of it continued:

I was looking through old blogs and came across one I'd written in 2008 about the power of human touch; how a man at work with an innocent touch reminded me back then that I wasn't truly alone, and that things would be ok. (He had come up behind me and started a good shoulder massage, and I felt like he could do that for the rest of the day! hehehe) Although Ted has moved on to another work place in Ohio, I now look forward to a morning hug from Marco, a gentle soul of a man willing to share a hug every day.

My reasoning for thinking about all of this stems from yep, living alone, this is year number seven now. Is that a magical number for some of you? It usually isn't for me, but I'm hopeful! I've never felt more knotted up before, and a part of that is ... well, of my own doing. And now that I've done did what I done, when something comes up, there's no one to talk about it with. It's a unique situation and needs a unique solution, one I don't see coming. And, well, then there's the part about being a girl. Sometimes what we need is just a place to share, not necessarily a place where a problem is presented, and solution found. That seems to be more of a guy way of solving things. And being a unique situation, I'm finding that there's not a lot of people who understand it in the first place, which makes them a difficult sounding board.

Since its a threefold kind of problem, it doesn't have a solution, or a resolution, for right now. So in the meantime, I'm left all knotted up. I was told ... "I think sometimes you get it all wrapped up so tight in you, you have a hard time uncoiling." Hmm, I seem to think that's true, with some topics, some issues. Sometimes finding a solution that works for you, can only come from yourself.

Thanks for reading this! HUGS!