Friday, May 22, 2020

I cry

Dear Brian:

It's Friday, and I'm off work because I am covering the next 5 days for Reena, who is off on vacation.  Not that anything is a vacation these days, just time away from work, since we're all still stuck at home in so many cases.   This COVID thing is still making people a little bit crazy ... except for me.  Things for me seem very normal -- I go to work and then I'm a home-body and enjoy my solitude!

But it's been a rough week for me.  It feels as if every time I turn around, there's a reason to think about you and I get sad all over again, my heart breaks, I cry.  I can't believe you you chose your way out.  No matter how strong you think I am, it's not the same without you.  I was strong because I needed to be, for my kids.  Now there's not as much reason.  

But I keep going because that's what I do.

How I wish ....
How I wonder ....

But I will never know.

I love you
Mom

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