confuzzled

Is confuzzled a word? Not according to Webster, but the Urban dictionary says its : a combination of being confused and puzzled, not knowing what the fuck is goin on. So my vote is in: I think that's a great word! Not to be mixed up, however, as in Con-Fuzzled - the convention of fuzzy furry ..... well. Let's not go there!!

When I get to feeling confuzzled about things going on (or not going on) in my life, I tend to ... avoid. Sometimes its just easier to let the feelings pass than it is to try and figure them out, or worse, to try and do anything about them. In that way, I spent the day doing busy work and chores. I decorated my Christmas tree, I dived through the boxes of decorations I've accumulated over the years. I played with my new camera, I got my laundry caught up for the week, cleaned the bathroom, bedroom and kitchen. Whew. Now its time to sit down and get caught up with *me* again. There's a pot of stew simmering on the stove for dinner, and it smells delicious! The sun is just beginning to sink in the sky, and I'm ready to start the work week over again. (Ugh, though. Some time off would be awesome!)

Back to being confuzzled. Or not. I started this post on Saturday, but found it difficult to continue with my thought. So now its Tuesday, and usually I get a good morning message on my phone from his yahoo messenge, or something within the day. Today, nothing. Which made me worry, of course. But even still, if there's something.... The confuzzling part ... if love and trust go hand in hand, what's the reason for not making it a real txt, phone to phone?

Ahh the little pieces of a confuzzled puzzle.