After a hurried and flurried morning, a leisurely relaxing lunch time, and a quick zip into a local store, we finally had company arrive for dinner. It was such fun to see old friends, and family, after being away for a year. Wine flowed liberally, steaks were on the grill, home made potato salad... yummmmmm. Dessert was chocolate dipped strawberries. Good times catching up with nephews, brother, sister, all the inlaws. I was telling a friend how nice it is to just sit and be comfortable, and be me. This is my family, and no matter what, no matter how things are going in life, they love me and i love them. just the way they are.
There are moments when I'm ..... watching, and wishing, that there was someone special in my life, someone to share things with at the end of each day. And then I think about all the things I hear about from other women about men, and think WTF do I want that in my life for?
Right now, there's no one I have to share the TV or remote with. No one to share the bathroom with. No one else's dirty socks to pick up but mine. No one else to cook for if I don't feel like cooking. Yes, there are lonely moments, but is it worth giving up my lonely moments for all that sharing? Its a hard line to draw at times, and I'm never sure where I stand on the issue. Maybe I could make up my mind better if Mr. Right showed up in the picture. But I'm not out there seeking him. He will have to find me. And then make an effort to win me over and keep me forever.
Sorry if this sounds rambling, but .... wine does that to me :)
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