I hate that feeling like there's ... another shoe about to drop.
Maybe I find myself feeling that way when too many things are going on. Or maybe not enough things are going on! Back in the day, I was raising six kids, and every day had plenty of things that needed doing on a regular basis. Now that it's just me at home, I often feel .... bored. Or that I'm waiting for "the next thing". In the meantime, I use my days off to recuperate and rest. But is that truly living? I find myself wondering that often. I'll admit, there are some days off where I feel like all I'm doing is prepping my life - ie doing laundry and clean up chores - so that I can make it through the next week of work. Definitely not living.
Added to these feelings of being off, I've been plagued by dreams. I've taken to writing down what I feel are key words when a dream wakes me up. The latest I can recall is in the first dream image there's a male figure in my life, and I'm looking at my phone. It's telling me "I don't have time to train you today." The three words I wrote down for this is "train, bbq, and cement". I don't have any recall on a bbq or any cement, other than a vague image of lots of cement in the backyard, with a built in bbq. Was there a feeling a party or event was going to happen? Does that explain why there's "no time to train"? The second image I had was much more vivid. There were two white horses who had just walked up a dirt road. As I looked down the dirt road, I could see it curved to the right. On the right side of the dirt road was grasses or meadow, on the left side, a small strip of meadow and then trees. Not deep dark forest type, but more narrow trunks, leafy, letting a lot of sunlight through. The two white horses stopped off to the left of me, one munching on grass, the other looking backward where it came from, watching a white buffalo coming up the road at a slow leisurely walk. Behind it, another white horse. As they came up the road, I began swimming down the road, toward the curve. I was swimming with the current of the water, it felt like a river, but there were no rocks, only a clear tunnel of water.
Of course, being me and trying to find meaning where maybe there truly isn't one, I checked out some dream interpretation sites, and chose these few sentences from them:
- White Horse – White horses in a dream indicates your spiritual awareness but you are down to earth in your outlook. They symbolize prosperity, good luck, and purity.
- To dream of the sacred White Buffalo is the most coveted of dreams, as the appearance of the creature connotes abundance, prosperity and serves as a good omen for the dreamer.
- Dirt road: following your instinct or your gut or repeating old patterns – can indicate the rekindling of an old relationship or someone from your past coming back into your life.
- Water in dreams is a symbol of subconscious feelings and emotions. Maybe your dream about swimming is a sign of trying to manage some emotions and feelings, which are not comfortable for you. Swimming in a river generally means that it is time for a new start in life. If the river current was flowing fast and pushing you along then this is a positive omen.
Most times, dreams leave me with a feeling of ... comfort. I deal with it in my mind as if a good friend came to tell me things I need to know, using imagery instead of words. Sometimes, I wish it was just words, so that I could read instead of trying to interpret!
The latest in the saga of Elvis, he has decided that it would be better for him if he worked in another store. All of us totally agreed! We shall see what happens, but I think the worst of it (for me) is over with for good. HooRay!
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