Heavenly Birthday

Dear Brian,

Here it is, your birthday .... Happy Birthday in heaven!

It's a sad day for me, and a rough one as well. 
I miss you.
Every day.

I know that feeling won't ever go away, it's just something I have to live with.

The AC guys are here installing the new unit. It took the crane guy exactly 12 minutes from drive up, removing the old unit and putting the new one on the roof.  He's got a pretty good gig ... no heavy lifting, just precise driving!   There are two installers, they are even installing new duct work and a programmable thermostat.  Yep, it was a pretty penny, but it's going to be worth it. 

As I sit here waiting for the guys to finish up, I can't help thinking about all the birthdays in the past.  You and I were never about doing things with people very often.  A fav dinner like steak and potatoes, with an ice cold beer was usually enough for us.  Or better yet, a pepperoni pizza and some Pepsi.

I'm moving on a little bit each day, but it's not always easy.
Things come up, things need doing, and my first thought is "call Brian". 
And then it hits me all over again.
And I miss you even more.

In my mind, I hug you every time the ache gets to be too strong

*happy birthday hugs*
Love,
mom