Brain Dump

I just heard that phrase today. And when I heard it, I realized that a lot of this blog has been my brain dump.  

Looked on Google:  brain dump is a simple yet effective technique for decluttering your mind by writing down everything that's occupying your thoughts.  

And lately its all about mom and how frustrated I am caring for her.  And how to help fix things for her.  For example, PT only works if she takes what she learns and applies it.   That's on her.

One of the frustrating things is having nothing to talk about. We go everywhere together. Even a trip to the doc, I go in the exam room with her. We watch tv together.  Other than her listing her bodily complaints or her house complaints, she doesnt have much to contribute to a conversation.  Even her tv watching habits leave little to talk about, they're game shows!

And I don't tell her much of my personal stuff.  Sometimes she blabs it to others, other times she's giving me advice that doesn't work for me. If I say I'm going to the gym she says don't work too hard. If I am doing stuff around the house, she's telling me to rest.  It's easier to not share.

But if I didn't have this place to dump, I would need therapy!  Most people can talk to someone in their family, but there's no one like that for me.  Add to that my empath tendencies and it complicates things.  She insists on daily hugs, and I shudder at the negative vibe coming from her.  Sounds a little strange, but that's how it is.  I have begun wearing stones for protection and carrying my turquoise worry stone as well. 

So there it is, my brain dump of the day! Have a good weekend!