Where we are in life is based on either our own selfish choices
or those where we put other's needs above our own.
Choose wisely.
At my age, interesting thoughts happen when I can't sleep. I realized this while watching Blue Bloods. The Reagan family, a family of cops, shows us this: "Every day a cop makes a difference in people's lives." That's an admirable thing to have, to do. Teachers do, too, in a different way. They don't always see the end result until many years later. Like raising kids. You never know until the years are gone, and they become something, someone, with choices and lives of their own.
Me, my job doesn't make much difference in that kind of sense. What I do doesn't have a direct impact on people. But that doesn't mean I can't, or don't. Being a parent is a job in and of itself; I raised my own two kids mostly on my own. And had a hand in raising up several step children as well. I know what I did made a difference, I can see it first hand. Mostly from afar, but that's the way it is when kids grow up and start their lives. It's how it should be.
But I often wonder at the choices I made, play the "What IF" game in my head.
What if I'd gone to college?
What if I'd waited to have kids?
That's never a winning battle. I can look back on situations and think that a better choice could have
been made - but that would be in hindsight, knowing things that were unknowable at the time the decision(s) were made. Don't start down the road wishing for things to be different. You can't change history, but you can make positive changes starting today!
So rather than focus on those old what if's and what not's that scurry around my brain in the wee hours of the night, I prefer to spend my time doing things that are pleasing to me in these so called "Golden Years" -- I putter on my house, I make great photos when I'm out and about, I take long walks with my dog, and visit with my children and grandchildren whenever I can. And of course, I write in my blog here ... perhaps some day these little blurbs and random thoughts will give insight or meaning to generations who may ponder these very same things.
