Not My Year

 I usually have a pretty good year in even numbered years.  

2020 hasn't been that year for me.

In April, I had to replace my AC unit - didn't like the price, but glad I did it, because this has been Arizona's hottest summer ever!! 

Then a new roof - Another costly home improvement

Along comes COVID-19 and the world feels lopsided.  We're out of toilet paper, paper towels and cleaning supplies.  Stores are shopped heavily, people seem to be hoarding everything from frozen foods to canned goods.  Four months later and there are still things that aren't available.

Summer heat keeps us indoors, and I spent my spare time sewing masks because we're all required to wear them in all public places.  Then my sewing machine quit.  And I love my very old Kenmore!  To repair or not to repair ? 

My sister lost her battle with pancreatic cancer.

Then my fridge quits - another $1200 spent, and a day waiting for delivery. 

Today was my annual physical.  Getting old means things don't work as well as they used to.  My blood pressure has been slowly rising over the last five years and today was "the talk" about starting to take blood pressure meds.  And a referral to see a cardiologist.  

I'm afraid to see what the rest of the year brings!!!!

And SO ready for it all to be over .... 

This has not been my year.

Too Much Going On

Dear Brian,

Life has been hectic lately, and with everything going on .... boy, I miss having you here! 

The fridge has been acting up, so I called in a Sears repairman.  The logic board went out on the freezer side, and the parts are no longer available.  So I had to dash around to Home Depot to see if I could find another one.  But all the side by sides are taller than will fit in the space.  Ugh  So I dashed over to Lowe's.  They had a Whirlpool that would fit but the ice machine was in the door and looked kinda jinky; next to it, a Frigidaire that's exactly like the one here.  AND it was on sale.  So I didn't waste any time and bought it.  It will be delivered Weds, and I'm wishing you were here all over again so that the ice maker line could be installed.  Here's another thing I gotta figure out how to do on my own.  

I was sewing more masks today, and my sewing machine seized up.  If you were here, I know you could figure out how to fix it.  And now I have to invest in a new machine, or have this one fixed.  Having this one fixed is better, because it's all metal and a real workhorse.  New ones are all plastic-y ... *sigh*  Another reason for wishing you were still here. 

I miss having convos with you, even though I have them every day in my mind.  I still tell you things and then wish you were here to help me with this thing or that chore.  Not a day goes by that something doesn't need doing, and I wish for your help. Or your company.  

I burst into tears yesterday and today, just from missing you.  I'll never truly get over not having you around.

Love you always, 

Mom