Anxiety

Mom is always anxious. But having an upcoming MRI makes her even more anxious.  Sunday, at 330pm she was wondering when she could eat dinner, even though no one else had arrived. (Dinner is usually at 5!)  She served herself and started eating, but couldn't finish, she's too anxious.  Her scan is on Tuesday. 

Today when I arrived, it took her 45 minutes to wind down about all her worries:

What time do I take my Ativan?  If I only take one, why did he give me 4?  It says take as needed. What does that mean? (Of course, I promptly asked Google and told her to take it one hour before scan.) She said, can you set your alarm??  *silent eye roll*  sure, but you'll be awake. Don't worry.

And why are they doing 3 separate MRIs on me???  Mom, why are you worrying? Can you change it? Do the nurses and techs know what they're doing?  Worrying won't change it, won't make it better, faster, or how the scan gets done.  It just is.  She sighs, I know but I can't help it.  

These are among my daily struggles with her ..... 

And now she's snoozing in her chair again.  I'm spending the night to ease her worries, but I'm not sure its much help. She has her own worry-mind, it spins constantly.