Thursday, May 15, 2025

A Field Day

Do psych doctors think of it as having a field day when someone comes in with many issues to delve into?

I have always wondered about being analyzed.  What would I reveal? What would they surmise?  

I always assumed that I grew up in an ideal home, the kind they talked about from the 50s -- and that kind of atmosphere was how I thought I wanted to live my own adult life.   But reality was SO different!!!

Now that I'm more of an adult than ever, I realize that while my growing up years looked good from the outside, there was a lot of not so good on the inside.  I've speculated here before about how I was raised.  And how I didn't do the same things with my own kids.  

In the 60s and 70s, a lot was said about "keeping up with the Jones' ".  I also had a thought that just occurred to me.  Dad was the instrumental one in beginning our camping outings.  I dont think it was Mom's thing, but she gave in?  Just a thought.  But maybe this was dad's way of trying to put things on a different track.  Because at home, it was all about keeping up appearances, a clean house over doing things together.  

So would a psychiatrist have different thoughts? To delve deeper into the meanings behind things?  I realize that a lot of all of the issues stem from my mother's fear (that carries with her to this day) that her step mother is going to kill her in her sleep.  Maybe mom was forced? Told? That chores had to be done a certain way, by a certain time?  Its always been "work before play" at our house.  

I may never have a chance for any deep delving into issues, and I don't think I really want to take the time or the expense, but I do ponder it from time to time!  We all make choices in our lives based on what we know in the moment, and that wont change. But things that happen to us shape our lives. So be good humans with your kids.


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