Good Report

Stress and worry seem to be the order of the day.  It's been a long week.  And I'm tired.  My sleep has been off -- worry and stress will do that.  I wake up in the middle of the night and when I look at my FitBit I am noticing that my heart rate is dropping below 50 BPM and it makes me worried even more.   Even though I'm antsy I can hardly wait until Thursday when I see the cardiologist. 

And now many days have gone by  ....... 

I forgot I had started this thread, and now it's been 11 days since I met with the cardiologist.  Everything is mostly OK;  I am doing a stress test and ECG just to have a baseline to compare against in the future.  Yes, there could be issues down the road because of my weight.  I've been using The Beast more often, getting my heart rate up so that I'm prepared for the treadmill stress test.  I've been being adventuresome and choosing some of the other buttons on the console.  Today, it was "Fat Burn".  For two minutes I warmed up, then it changed the inline to "10" , dropping down as each minute passed.  I feel good afterward! 

Now I'm relaxing, and trying to do some deep breathing exercises to reduce some stress.  My co-worker has taken a leave of absence so I'm working six hour days for six days a week.  Being at work each day, even for a shortened day, keeps me caught up on the majority of things.  It's a love/hate relationship I have with the crazy hours.  But I'm still taking my Wednesday off, knowing that I'll have to do a lot of catch up on Thursday because the guy who helps out isn't really up on the latest procedures.   

After all this, I'm really grateful for good doctors, good health, and ... summer heat is almost gone! 

Stress and Anxiety

 There is too much going on for me right now, and I'm stressing and anxious over all of it.  

I'm scheduled for Jury Duty today, and I just don't think I can go .... gastro issues become more extreme when I'm stressed and anxious.  Taking meds to combat that means that instead it becomes constipation and that's almost just as bad.  

On top of that, my doc told me I had an abnormal EKG, and high blood pressure.  Which of course is causing lots more anxiety and stress.  Which means I'm worried, and frankly a bit scared.  With the anxiety added to some of the depression in the last year, it's not really any wonder, but still ......  :/ 

Just how much is a person supposed to endure ??? 

I know that each of us has circumstances out of our control.  How we handle them is what makes or breaks us.  I've always been a believer in the fact that God doesn't give us what we can handle, but helps us handle what we are given. 

 

I'm wondering if this is a sign about some changes that need to be made in my life, including where I'm going to live.  I love my little house, but I also feel the need to be with my mother as she gets older as well.  My sister died and now mom doesn't have someone close by to depend on.  And thinking about everything makes me feel just a little bit more ill. 

I will be watching for more signs as I move through the next few months to see if there's something I should be doing as I handle all the stresses coming my way.  I'm praying that my heart is just showing signs of anxiety and nothing else really serious.  If it's anxiety, I'll have to learn to realign my life and incorporate more walking and more meditation and relaxation.

I would appreciate a little prayer sent my way if that's your thing. If it's not, then just some positive vibes would sure be appreciated.  Thank You!