Synchronicity

 Every now and then, a song comes on the radio, and you're instantly transported to another place and time.  Music memory is funny that way.  Or is it the reverse?  Does thinking of a memory bring up the song associated with that memory?  

On the drive home yesterday, an old Toby Keith song came on, and I sang along, loudly!  "I'm not as good as I once was, but I'm good once as I always was."  Chuck's theme song, he sang it to me often when I would answer the phone.  He made me chuckle every single time.  What a great, fond memory.  And I miss him.

Today on the way home it was Tim McGraw's song, "Always Stay Humble and Kind".  That was my sister's favorite song and today is the anniversary of her death three years ago.  The timing was uncanny!

Synchronicity?

The universe reminding me?

Either?    Both?

I'm grateful for the reminder. It made me smile!

Four Years Ago

July 2 was the fourth anniversary since my son Brian died.  Time passes in a different dimension when your child dies.  The daily tasks that are somewhat mundane but necessary keep me moving in a semi forward direction.  But its not always forward.

There are days when the grief is still overwhelming, even after four years.  There are days when I feel alone, that no one even remembers him.  I know that death is an awkward subject for most people.  Suicide is even worse.  I also know that most people don't know what to say to those of us who have lost someone. 

But because he asked, I go on with my days, trying to be happy,  to find joy in the little things.  To honor him.  Because I love him.