No post yesterday because its the hardest day of the year for me. It's been five years since the day I came home from work and found my son dead in the backyard.
The visuals are impossible to get out of my head. I try to stay busy and keep those thoughts in the background. But night time is the worst. So I'm extra tired today. And a little bit cranky.
The heat doesn't help.
I miss Brian every day; we were close. My goals .... well they don't matter any longer and in many ways I am lost without him here.
But life keeps moving forward, and sometimes I'm just swept along because it's the best I can do in the moment.
It's easy to wish others would know what I'm going through, but there's no way I would wish this upon anyone.
My tribute full of stories and photos can be found at www.forevermissed.com/Brian-court
Being a parent who has lost a child changes everything.
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