Me Stuff

Shes 88 and says to her 66 year old daughter "I need a huggie" ??????

Am I unreasonable to think that's just f*ing weird?????

Long ago, I used to smoke. And when I decided to quit, it was cold turkey.  I found it easy to stay quitted because smokes weren't around any more.  The whole out of sight, out of mind kind of thing.

I tell myself it would be easy to lose weight if I could do the same with food -- out of sight, out of mind. But food is a necessity.

My moving to Ohio was the same kind of thing; away from mom was another kind of out of sight, out of mind. 

Now I can't do that because she's here; and finding my way to an acceptable boundary between us seems virtually impossible. She wants more, I want much less. 

My mind constantly runs scenarios. I have this "I know that I know that I know" feeling she will go on (like this) for another 5-10 years.  And I'm supposed to accept that this is going to be the rest of my life?? 

My alternate solution for now is to slowly back off the amount of time I spend with her.  And to drastically back off the amount of stuff I do to "entertain" her.

Its time for me. I've said that many times. I'll probably have to say it many times more. Because she can be relentless in her "me" stuff.  But it's time for me stuff.