The Blah's

Here it is, a Saturday and no work today!  That's always a plus, but after having breakfast and walking Sadie, I wondered what I should do.  Being I work retail, Sunday is a workday for me, so I've only this one day off .... but I didn't want to just waste it away binge watching Netflix or puttering about.  So I decided to be super ambitious and took everything off another large living room wall so that I could paint that and the ceiling.  I let Netflix play a dozen episodes of Blue Bloods while I worked, and finished what I'd started in just 5 hours.  To get out of the paint smell, Sadie and I headed to the local park for a walk, hit the drive thru for supper and came home, tuckered.

I have to admit though, that I'm beginning to have concerns about my episodes of stomach issues.  When I take my new meds, I feel constipated and feel as if I don't know when the need for a bathroom will come up, so I don't travel far.  Especially with Sadie.  It's not bad when I can stop at a fast food and find a restroom, but leaving Sadie in a closed up car on a warm day?  Yeah, that's not happening.  And maybe that's where I become stressed out, letting anxiety take over because I know in the back of my mind that I can't stop anywhere when she's with me.

I know that having a dog is a commitment -- and certainly not one that I wanted when my daughter decided she couldn't handle her as a puppy.   But now that I have her, she's good company when I'm home alone, but not exactly a great breed to travel with.  She gets super excited on car rides, no matter how many rides, or how far we go!  She pants heavily, which causes her mucus to build up in her throat/lungs and makes it even harder to breathe.  Maybe some of my anxiety is from her snout next to my ear, panting while I drive.   Ugh.

Having a dog at this stage in life .... I feel too much guilt because I'm not home with her for more than 10 hours every working day.  Is that fair?  On the other hand, she's treated very well, has a comfortable house to live in, I don't restrict her from any room in the house (although maybe I should??)

ok ok, I admit it, she's one very spoiled dog!

And I suppose I wouldn't have it any other way :)

Dream On!

When it comes to dreams, when I dream, they're a doozy.  And the ones I remember are always in color.  The other night, it was a dream about buying a new car.  I was shopping with a man -- an ex perhaps? -- and he said he had the perfect car for me.  It was bright red, and sporty looking on the outside.  We decided to take it for a test drive and boy did it run great at first!  We zoomed here and there, but then ended up in a large parking lot (of my BigBox store perhaps? lol )  and the thing was sputtering and died.  As I got to looking around the car, paying more close attention to the dash and interior, I said "This car's a piece of sh!t!  Just what year is it??"   He told me it was a 1970s car.  As I peered around I could see that the door interiors had been replaced -- with SHEETROCK!  To open the window, you turned an old crank handle, and right next to the driver just below the window hung a green manual pencil sharpener!

Now, when trying to piece together this little mystery, I have to admit, I've had a new car thought in the very back of my brain (my current car is 2009, so another car before I retire is a must) and have looked at the Chevy Equinox -- in white, not red!  *laughs*  Having the inside of the car "re-done" in sheetrock, that's a new one on me.  And a pencil sharpener?  Hmmm.... wonder what that means in a dream??  

Ok Google, help me out:   "(Blade) A pencil sharpener in a dream represents a good son who is envied by people. ... In a dream, a pencil sharpener also represents a writer or an author. "  Ok, either of those fits.  :)  

"To see or install drywall panels in your dream refers to your desires for privacy. You are building up a layer of protection. Perhaps you have been hurt and are being guarded with your emotions."   Now that's pretty interesting as well.  As I've mentioned in other posts, I'm highly sensitive, or an empath.  Or some sort of combination.  Either way, I find that I need to have up my own internal walls in any type of crowded place to help deflect some of the energies I feel from other people in the area.  I've begun to carry some small gemstones in my pocket each day, as I have a co-worker who puts off negative energy in waves.  After work, I'm exhausted from all of the energy I expend trying to ward off his energy.  Which is also the reason Sadie and I take a lot of walks:  Earth elements like wind and rain help wash away the negative energy; contact with Earth is like having my battery recharged!

"In dreams, cars often represent you and reveal how you are getting through life. Depending upon the context of the dream, a car can symbolize our physical body, mind, ego (Freud's definition), consciousness, personality, and/or our life in general or the direction our life is taking."  Does this mean I'm feeling like I'm stuck in the 70s????  hahaha  Those were some good years!       "To dream of the color red indicates raw power, elan, fervor, intense passion, aggression, authority, and bravery. It connotes deep emotions and spirituality."

When all is said and done, dreams can be a bit silly, but they are also fascinating to think about it, to give us helps in our daily living tasks, to help us achieve our dreams, or point us in a new direction!

Dream on!