Do You Get Stuck?

I'm tired a lot, and I know I keep harping about it here.  My apologies!  

But Thursday, I woke up and I just couldn't seem to get myself motivated!  I layed in bed -- partly because the house was so cold! -- and just played games on my phone.  

So is that being lazy? Practical? Ambivalent? Or just hiding from the world?  Probably all of the above. 

Procrastination.  Yeah. That too.  

Getting up means getting on with the day, getting on with the tasks, and getting things done.  And my gut is so queasy, has been for weeks now.  Having to make decisions that affect mom's life .... UGH!  Because what I choose isn't always right in her eyes. Or maybe her negativity means there is always some portion that is criticized, even if its mostly the right decision.  

A typical example of mom's mentality. Weds she complained that the nurse gets her up at 7am.  Friday, she complained they didn't get her up until 8:10.   How can you keep a woman like that happy???  She finds fault with a lot. As I left, she said "i love you, girl." And I'm wondering if I should be offended..... am I reduced to being "girl"??

Trying to help her live her best life becomes impossible at times, and interferes with my best life.  There are no easy answers and at times I feel stuck.  I arrange my days as best I can to do what's best for everyone.

The holidays are going to be very different!