Dear Brian,
Here it is, your birthday .... Happy Birthday in heaven!
It's a sad day for me, and a rough one as well.
I miss you.
Every day.
I know that feeling won't ever go away, it's just something I have to live with.
The AC guys are here installing the new unit. It took the crane guy exactly 12 minutes from drive up, removing the old unit and putting the new one on the roof. He's got a pretty good gig ... no heavy lifting, just precise driving! There are two installers, they are even installing new duct work and a programmable thermostat. Yep, it was a pretty penny, but it's going to be worth it.
As I sit here waiting for the guys to finish up, I can't help thinking about all the birthdays in the past. You and I were never about doing things with people very often. A fav dinner like steak and potatoes, with an ice cold beer was usually enough for us. Or better yet, a pepperoni pizza and some Pepsi.
I'm moving on a little bit each day, but it's not always easy.
Things come up, things need doing, and my first thought is "call Brian".
And then it hits me all over again.
And I miss you even more.
In my mind, I hug you every time the ache gets to be too strong
*happy birthday hugs*
Love,
mom
Wednesday, April 8, 2020
Sunday, April 5, 2020
Social Distancing, et al
Another day, and day XX of this strange quarantine the world is under due to COVID-19. There are posts, announcements, newscasts -- in whatever way they can, they are advising people to shelter in place. It's been going on for a while. Schools in Arizona were cancelled on March 15, and it was extended through the end of the school year. Students are being home schooled, and/or doing their lessons on line. Many parents' jobs are suspended; only those who are considered "essential" are working as usual (yes, that includes me at my BigBoxStore).
But I have to say that while announcements in the media about what they are doing to keep their workers safe make it sound good, it's really not. And I'm ashamed that they would portray things one way and not admit to the reality. The plexiglass shield between cashiers and customer hasn't happened yet. They're limiting customers who come in the doors based on the square footage of a store. But the reality is the Tire Lube Express is completely shut down so that footage shouldn't count. Most people aren't shopping the entire garden center, that shouldn't count. And truthfully, the back 1/4 of the footage is backroom space, and that shouldn't count either! Based on the square footage of the store, 1500 shoppers could be in the store at one time. We are more around the 500 mark, but that is too may people at a time!
The ones who are shopping aren't getting 'essentials' -- they're relieving their boredom, having an outing with their kids (who tend to touch everything!) , even meeting up with other family members and having a reunion! Shoppers try to approach me, want me to look at their phone even, because they're trying to find something. SIX FEET, PEOPLE!!
And yet, each day I go to work because I know that what I do is needed by the community and I want to do my part.
It's extremely frustrating; I am not easily aggravated, but it's getting worse.
and I fear my tongue will get the better of me!!
But I have to say that while announcements in the media about what they are doing to keep their workers safe make it sound good, it's really not. And I'm ashamed that they would portray things one way and not admit to the reality. The plexiglass shield between cashiers and customer hasn't happened yet. They're limiting customers who come in the doors based on the square footage of a store. But the reality is the Tire Lube Express is completely shut down so that footage shouldn't count. Most people aren't shopping the entire garden center, that shouldn't count. And truthfully, the back 1/4 of the footage is backroom space, and that shouldn't count either! Based on the square footage of the store, 1500 shoppers could be in the store at one time. We are more around the 500 mark, but that is too may people at a time!
The ones who are shopping aren't getting 'essentials' -- they're relieving their boredom, having an outing with their kids (who tend to touch everything!) , even meeting up with other family members and having a reunion! Shoppers try to approach me, want me to look at their phone even, because they're trying to find something. SIX FEET, PEOPLE!! And yet, each day I go to work because I know that what I do is needed by the community and I want to do my part.
It's extremely frustrating; I am not easily aggravated, but it's getting worse.
and I fear my tongue will get the better of me!!
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