PT Then Mom

PT went great today!!  I will be a little sore tomorrow, but I feel so good!  My usual is 80lbs on the sled (push and pull) but I asked him to increase the weight. He said let's do 95. Only his math was off and he loaded 125lbs!!!!  And I did it! But I was totally exhausted from the effort.  Next week, we are trying 110lbs. Hehehe

*side note: a HUGE groan when I finally crawled into bed!!!

Then its on to Moms, where she's already in bed. Said she's "doing great, she can stand". Uh huh.  Can't do much else than stand, though. But she was in "a mood" today. Sit down and read while I nap, she says.  Then, Can you bring my jacket over here? Then, can you shut the door, its noisy today.  None of the commands are together while I'm still standing.  She waits about 5 mins in between each and I've settled into my story.  Its a control thing with her. 

And I begin to wonder how the next real convos are going to go. I am not patient in the decision making process with her.  I know she will try to convince a doc that I can live with her, help her.  No. Can't. Won't. 

We will have to find some sort of geriatric doctor type person to evaluate her physical status along with her mental status. Yesterday, she wanted to know how the election went and if Trump was voted in. Then she wanted to be wheeled outside, which I dont mind, but she sits with a smug look as if "see I'm the queen".  Weird that she doesn't speak to anyone, or greet people passing by. We were in the courtyard maybe 2 mins and she was dozed into a nap.

I spend time reading online about these kinds of decisions. Be patient and include them in the decision making process. Emphasize health and safety.  But I can feel a wall already up. Because I have spent the last 8 months being her caregiver. I know that what she says isn’t what she means and squirrels it around to her way each time. Every time.

And I hate the fact that since her father lived to be 104, She. Could. Too.  Do the math, that's another 17 years.  Of this? 

I'm hoping my brother, who arrives nov 16, will be a help.