The Size of Life

How big is your life? I watch tv and read a lot. Isn't it funny how appealing it is to be involved in the story line of people who live big lives?  Corporate executives with private jets, famous models or singers who travel all over, athletes and fame .....

Most of us don't live a life that large. 

For me, I keep trying to make my life smaller.  For me, less is more.

But I started this topic thinking about people. I don't have a giant circle of friends, mostly acquaintenances. And maybe my definition of friends is different from others. A friend is someone I would trust with my secrets. And there are very few of those. 

But I think at 4am this blog is going nowhere good. So maybe I better stop.  I was just being realistic in my thoughts because no matter the struggles I am going through, mom is not a safe confidant.

But when I struggle, handling the heavy things that come along can weigh me down. One crazy episode with my blood pressure going through changes, that was topped with a slight panic attack, which added to the blood pressure changes and it made for a rough couple of days.  The bottom line, though, is that things are better and I'm handling it.  

All these crazy thoughts to say I like my life small.