Current mood:crazy
Someone used the word companion to somewhat describe a relationship with someone, and I had to think about it for a long time. What comes to mind when you hear that word? The image I got in my head was of an older {read: elderly} person, with a good friend who did things for and with that person [like grocery shopping, or a trip to the beauty parlor], a companion. I looked it up on the web, and Google define gave me :
a person who is frequently in the company of another; "drinking companions"; "comrades in arms"
a traveler who accompanies you
one paid to accompany or assist or live with another
Answers.com gave me:
A person who accompanies or associates with another; a comrade.
A domestic partner.
A person employed to assist, live with, or travel with another.
One of a pair or set of things; a mate.
and under the heading "Thesaurus" :
One who shares interests or activities with another
One of a matched pair of things
And then I started to wonder.... is it wishful thinking on my part to choose which meaning was intended? which one in the context of what was said? (I realize I'm leaving a few details out ... some stuff just isn't for sharing! lol) Or ......... is it that important?
Sometimes we women want to have things "just so" - all laid out, in its own little cubbyhole or sitting on its rightful place on a shelf. When it comes to relationships, maybe we're so busy trying to define what's going on, what's been going on, what might go on, I think there are times when we tend to lose track of the actual relationship in favor of finding its rightful place in our lives. [In looking back over a rocky past, that just might be exactly what I was trying to do a time or two!] Maybe its enough that I just accept what was said in the spirit it was said in; to quit trying to cull out some kind of deeper meaning in a word that brought to mind an image that is a product of assumptions, and more than likely not what was intended.
Then I had a horrible thought: What if I'm getting to that age where I'll be looking for a companion, rather than ... whatever ~~it~~ is we single women seek????? (ok, I had to find a way to put that nicely.... hehehhee) Is that the best I can hope for now that I'm nearing my half century mark? I certainly hope not!! I've got more ummmm "living" I want to do !!
Dreams - Mar 5, 2008
Current mood:mellow
Do dreams really come true? Is it possible to make what seems impossible possible? There are some who might say that my recent move was making a dream come true. And in many ways it has. I'm closer to family, and for that, I'm very grateful. But what about other dreams? Have some of you wished for a special vacation in some exotic island? Or of seeing the seven wonders of the world? Studying a foreign language? Writing a novel, or poetry?
Sometimes, we tend to have this fleeting thought of something great we'd like to try, and it never comes to happen. Why? Because we don't acknowledge it? We are our worst enemy when it comes to "shooting down" the things we'd like to do - usually in favor of some responsibility. But what about our responsibility to our self? Shouldn't we each come first in the line, if not all the time, then at least on occasion?
I'm tossing out a challenge .... to acknowledge the desire for those dreams. Write them down. Put it in an envelope, a jar, a folder. Fill it with that fleeting thought you had today. Then occasionally read through those dreams, see what's possible. A mind is a funny thing; when you acknowledge something, the subconscious can take a shot at making them a reality. Maybe you're dreaming of that once in a lifetime vacation, and you think "I can't possibly afford that" and yet, your subconscious just might start prepping for that choice. The next time you're in the grocery store, it may tell you "you don't need that". Saving a few pennies here and there can add up immensely!!
Go ahead ... try it .... what have you got to lose??
