Musings

i knew the rules early on
but somehow
i let myself believe
things would change

i let myself lose hope
only to gain it back
over and over again

and i let myself be alone
               @LDPoetry 2012
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Life is not always fair.  
Sometimes you get a splinter 
even sliding down a rainbow.  
~Terri Guillemets
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It's 5am and I'm awake with a rumbly stomach.  I'm not sure what it is, did I eat something that didn't agree with me?  I didn't go overboard with my eating yesterday, the only thing different was having a Luna S'mores bar at bedtime.  Like many females, I tend to eat when I get emotional.  Saturday was a misunderstanding between a friend and I; it's a complicated kind of thing, something was said and misinterpreted.  Sometimes words meant as a joke are hard to take that way when there are doubts about where the relationship stands.  But that's how life works out, and lucky we're close enough that we can talk it through.  *sigh* When I was young, I assumed that by my age, I'd be settled, and not have to worry about silly drama such as this.  I guess some things never change when it comes to relationships between people.

But its Sunday, its another day, and its promising to be a beautiful day:  sunshine means time in my chair in the yard!  and I shall be hopeful ..... for what else is there?  *hugs to everyone*