Unfinished Story

What is it about ice cream that tastes so good, so comforting, when you're feeling blue? Bordeaux Cherry Cordial by Blue Bunny has been my fav for over a year now.  I don't allow myself to indulge very often ... but sometimes you just have to!! 

It's 10pm, and I'm sitting here on a Friday night, watching season 4 of Friends, (yes, with a bowl of ice cream!) with too much thinking going on.  I'm... I need to come to a decision, change is coming, time to turn the page. Maybe if I tell it like a story....

Once upon a time... oh heck, it was eight years ago, and I moved on, starting  a new life.  One of the things I did was get back on to the computer in order to rebuild my self esteem and become social with peers again.  That's where I met "Theophilus", and we hit it off, talking and sharing.  We moved through different topics and experiences over time.  Lots of time.  To this day, we're still friends.

Somewhere along the line, I had some feelings for this man; they grew as our friendship grew, but nothing ever came of it; I kept my feelings to myself.  We talked online on a regular basis.  Still do. Every day.  About a year ago, I sucked it down, and told him how I was feeling, and he did too.

But I can't finish this story.  

Because that's where it's stalled out.

I'm supposed to be logical, not emotional,
in order to make good decisions.
But if I set the emotions aside.... 
there's no if. 
I can't get past the emotions. 

"The heart has it's reasons 

that reason does not know."