every day

Ahhhh, vacation time.  Because any where, any time away from work is a good thing.

I used to dream of things I'd do with my vacation.  For the last few years, I always imagined myself heading toward the beach, finding a nice hotel, taking pictures along the beach.  But all that was secondary -- the primary goal was to meet someone special.  But I've had to let go of that dream, can no longer imagine my doing that.  And it makes me sad.

its 4am and I'm rambling, I haven't been sleeping well.
just using this to sound off for a minute.

every day i let go a little

words flashing back and forth
a smile, a hug
become fewer,
less often

our time together
reduced to barely
an hour

no talk of a future
using distractions
to maintain connection
and yet to keep distant

the sun will be rising soon
its 4am

i can't sleep,
and yet i can't cry
any longer

i feel an end
creeping up on us

are you feeling it to?
every day that goes by
every week that's behind us
every month, and now
every year
pulls me further and further
and every day i let go a little.
©LDPoetry