Three posts in one day. You can see it wasn't my best of days.
Walked the dog twice.
Napped with the dog twice.
Worked in the yard two different times.
and BBQ'd enough meat for the week.
Not a very healthy lifestyle; I know that I need to be more socially active. But damn its so hard to find people who aren't consumed with their own issues, who like things on a deeper level than going shopping, dining out, or watching movies. Yes, I know there are great people out there. And maybe I have a messed up way of thinking. But why waste their time and your time.......why can't they be you??
No energy to use my brain to get anything done. I could have logged in some stock statements, bank statements, checked that my bills are being paid on time. I could have worked on learning some linux, or putting together a trivia bot.
Instead, I spent the day moping. dragging. being lazy. watching TV. Did ya'll know Lawrence Welk is still on? I watched an old one from 1980 tonight. Oh yeah, a swinging time here tonight for sure!
That was my yesterday. And now its 5am and I am wide awake, and not wanting to do anything already. What I really need to do is write an email..... but I'm not sure I'm strong enough. But it comes down to my own sanity, or friendship. with a man. who isn't strong enough to change things for his own happiness. And I need someone who can be as strong as I can.
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