Isn't it funny that just a little bit of simple work makes you feel that much more in control? It doesn't lessen the pain, or the longing, or the missing, but it makes it seem ... bearable.
When my pup gets a little wild, wanting attention, I get to doing chores that she chases around after. I got my house vacuumed (she doesn't like the vac, barks at it!), then swiffer-mopped the tile (she chases after the mophead, trying to bite it!), wiped down the kitchen counters, and even made time for a few pictures.
All those things make me feel as if I'm in control, and not being controlled by feelings. Quite the revelation!
So I lotioned up every part of me, and even put on some nail polish.
Any volunteers to paint my toenails? *giggles*
Sat for a good portion of the evening on the back porch, cintronella candle burning (we have mosquitos this year after all the monsoon rains), listening to the night traffic, the neighbor's dog barking. The stars are really pretty in the sky. And there's a sense of peace - for the moment. And that's what its all about, the little moments. If you have a lot of little moments all pushed together, life seems pretty good.
Guard well within yourself that treasure, kindness.
Know how to give without hesitation,
how to lose without regret,
how to acquire without meanness.
— George Sand
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