Trying Hard

Trying so hard to just get through.

All I wanted was to get through this week at work (day 10 of 12 done! 2 more to go)
Get through the weekend, this is "party weekend" for my granddaughter.
And yes, I'm always happy for her, to see her.
But my daughter has it in her head that "we all get along" - meaning her dad and I at the same events.  Which I can tolerate -- to a point.  

When it rains, it pours.

What makes it harder is that a couple years back, I started to believe that I wouldn't be attending these things alone; it sure would be easier bringing "a date" along.  But of course, those ideals are shot to hell now.  Its just hard getting through them; I usually end up crying by the time I get home after all the stress of the day, the long drive, and from feeling alone all over again. 

Ever notice how everything happens at once?

I need to get Sadie fixed
I need to make a doctor's appt, dental appt, eye dr appt
Make some phone calls
Get to the gym

Sometimes I look back on these kind of moments and wonder:  How the hell do I do it all?
Life manages to take interesting, twisting roads, and we keep enduring -- but do we find real joy? Or is life passing us by?  I'm a big believer in "the little things" making the difference between joy and drudgery.  Check out this poster sent to me by a friend, it says it all.

Notice the little things,
get through the major things,
and be happy along the way, my friend!