Dear Brian:
I sat at my computer today, selecting photos and music to create a DVD that represents you, and your life. It wasn't easy, but it sure was fun. Looking at all the photos I have -- thousands!! -- and remembering all our adventures, home projects, just having fun with family; it was fun to see all those, and makes me glad I like taking pix! But it was sad as well.
Struggled a bit with the music -- some of your fav songs, well, the lyrics aren't so appropriate. So I did the next best thing: selected the intros from a bunch of your fav songs and slung them all together. It should make for a very ..... interesting reaction! :)
Here I am, making plans for a celebration of life -- it's like planning a surprise party ....
only you won't be there to be surprised.
Each day I'm putting one foot in front of the other, to cope. Sometimes it's having to cope hour to hour. I can tell when it becomes too much, and I have to go sit down, take a break. It's like my mind can only hold so much information before it needs to reboot. Sleeping is the same way for me. I can sleep about 90 minutes, then I'm awake. Sometimes I'll walk Sadie into the living room and back before I crawl into bed, turn on some Netflix show, and try to sleep some more. Last night must have been rougher than most, Sadie let me sleep in til 6am!!
I was putzing around in the garage storage; a shelf fell and one of the bottle shattered all over. I cleaned that up today with the vacuum to get the itty bitty pieces, and did the rest of the garage as well. It was still full of styrofoam pieces from the piece you cut a couple weeks ago. We took that out of the window temporarily because there wasn't enough light in your room to clean things up, gather up the laundry and get it all washed.
My days are broken into bits and pieces.
Time has become "before" and "after".
Love,
Mom
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