Dear Brian:
It's Friday. Tomorrow is your Celebration of Life service, and the entire family has flown in. Lori and Grandma arrived on Wednesday; David, Krissy and Anthony on Friday; the rest of the crew arrived today. So good to see family, but we're sad because of the reason. It shouldn't take a funeral to get families together. Just sayin'.
Because of the heat, we all headed out to Arizona Mills mall and walked around, then had lunch in the Rainforest Cafe. It was fun, innovative, and certainly appealed to children! You know how it is with family, you end up having the best discussions around a meal -- even when you're not hungry. Dinner last night was at Red Robin, with endless fries. We left an empty chair at the table for you.
Its odd to feel the pull and tug of being happy to see your family, and sad that you're not here with me any longer. Sometimes I just want to curl up in bed and sleep through it all. Sometimes I think getting sick in the bathroom will make me feel better - even though I know it won't. But I trudge on and enjoy the little conversations, pieces of family life that gets shared.
I truly wish I didn't have to do all this.
Seriously.
But I can't change what happened, I can only hope that you have found your peace.
I love you.
Mom.
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