I Survived!

Here it is.  Friday the 13th.  I woke up very early, unable to sleep today.  I was very tempted to get up and out, take some pictures somewhere.  But I was afraid to do that, afraid to get in the car and start driving, afraid where I might end up.  You see, this is the day that I was going to take a trip to the west coast. It was going to be my birthday present to myself: some beach pictures, some around town shots, some good foods, a night away.  But it wasn't meant to be.

So now I'm stuck with what to do to keep my mind from wandering.  It's 9am, and I have reassembled my kitchen after taking it apart to paint.  And it looks great, I can truthfully say!  I added in two more shelves because there's never enough room for the plastic containers one accumulates over time.  With fewer shelves, those plastics end up being stacked one on top of another.  And when you need one, its always the one on the bottom. shuffle. shuffle. shuffle. hehehe

Out my window, I'm gazing at the cloudy morning; we've had a few sprinkles, which means its humid.  But with the clouds, there's no heat. Yet. There's a restless, reckless longing in me to hit the road, start driving, and let whatever happens, happen.  Part of today needs to be spent unpacking my overnight bag.  When I began planning this, I also started putting things in my overnight bag that I didn't want to forget ....

10am, and I've killed an hour, and can hear thunder overhead.

11am, and another hour is gone, along with the thunder. The rest of the day looms ahead of me. And I find myself wishing I was at work, where it keeps me too busy to think.  

3pm and the day finally has slipped away, and I know now that I can put it behind me and move forward.  I know that it's little steps, something every day, that will ease the pains.  I keep vowing to do something positive each and every day; I know there will come a day when I will feel the sorrow of what's been lost.  I'll be ready for it.  (its cliche`, but the chocolate ice cream is in the freezer already ... haha)

But it's nice to know that I survived today. :)